We made it! It’s February. January was so long, it’s hard to believe it’s over.
Well… how did we do?
I started the Whole30 challenge on January 6th (so I still have until Thursday to go), and that has been fun. I am constantly hungry and tired and sad, and I don’t know how much of that has to do with the diet, and how much of it has to do with the fact that it is winter, and I can’t leave the house. Writing has been a tremendous struggle, along with merely getting out of bed, so I haven’t made as much progress as I’d hoped. However, 2020 is still young, and I have time. In fact, I have all the time in the world.
Due to my emotional state, I haven’t been able to connect with Gray Haze as much as I have in the past. I stare at the document and read words that are just words. I write sentences that feel somewhat coherent, but I don’t feel the story. Does that make sense?
I have identified two main problems: (1) I need to rewrite Chapters 92 and 97 before I can finish 113, and (2) I need to take it slow, or risk writing myself into an inescapable rut. I will make an effort to write everyday, but I am not going to pressure myself with word count goals or deadlines. Although I did want to finish the manuscript by the end of March for various reasons, I don’t believe that will be possible. The book will be done when it’s done, simple as that. I want to finish it so badly that nothing will stop me.
The errors in my wip torment me constantly, and that is another factor that has forestalled progress. I am constantly thinking about what I could have done better in earlier scenes, and the urge to rewrite the whole thing is growing. I am going to ignore it, though, because at this point I don’t think rewriting it will actually improve it more than just editing it like a normal person, so don’t worry. I’ll stick to the plan.
January was a month of post-holiday fatigue and baby steps — baby steps toward looking/feeling better, toward spiritual growth, and back into the writing zone I was in last year. It was slow, it was long. And it is blissfully over.
So what is in store for February?
- I am going to fix a few things in my wip so that I can feel good about it again. I am already almost done with Chapter 92. Next, I’ll rewrite Chapter 97. If I am not ready to finish Chapter 113 (where I am currently stuck), then I will just edit whatever else comes to mind until I am.
- I am going to schedule a photo session with a professional photographer in my area. Hopefully I will have new photos for my website and social media accounts before the end of the month. I’m pretty excited.
- I will try to survive Valentine’s Day without chocolate or companionship.
You see, we have much to look forward to. 😉
ICYMI, last week I posted my first 2020 newsletter here on the blog so you could see what all of my future newsletters would look like. This month’s recommended read is The Lies of Locke Lamora, which I rated 5 stars on Goodreads. I want to read the sequel in February. I also read What Are Friends For? by Sarah Sutton and Followed by Frost by Charlie N. Holmberg, both of which I rated 5 stars. You should check them out!
Other posts you may have missed:
January 1st: 2019 Goals + 2020 Recap
January 8th: How to Set Goals
January 15th: Dedication to My Editor
January 23rd: Gray Haze Update #25
January 25th: JANUARY NEWSLETTER 📝
January 29th: My Scrivener Review
What did you accomplish in January? Are you looking forward to spring? Got any book recs for me (esp. ones that might help me feel less lonely on Valentine’s Day)? Let me know in the comments! ❤