October word count: 31,885 | Total word count: 184,670
I FINISHED PART 3/6! Three parts down, three to go. I am approaching 200,000 words in Gray Haze, which is completely, totally fine and dandy, and I am only a little bit scared to edit this monstrosity. I just passed 1,000,000 characters (as in letters + spaces) this week, so that’s cool.
The book doesn’t feel very long, that’s the strange thing. Maybe it’s the way Scrivener is set up, because I have all my chapters in tabs on the left side, so I can easily click through and find a scene back in Part 1 that pertains to Part 3. As a result, I am constantly referring back in my manuscript to remind myself how a character feels about so-and-so, how long it has been since [event], and so on. The scenes seem so closely knit that I am always surprised to view the total word count. I’m hoping the readers feel the same. I’m aspiring to write a book that grips them from beginning to end so it doesn’t feel as long as it is.
I’ve finally settled into a workout/diet routine that doesn’t make me sad. I’ve stopped counting carbs and calories and weighing myself. All I am doing now is intermittent fasting (16/8), eating 0 carbs for breakfast, and striving to consume 5 servings of fruits/vegetables a day. I’m allowing myself to eat a little bit of chocolate here and there. After a year and a half of counting calories and restricting myself, I have developed habits that will not be easy to break, including the habit of selecting the best foods available in my kitchen, minimizing sugar, and being overall conscious about what I am eating. I feel better now than I have in a long time by simply skipping the carbs at breakfast and consuming 2-3 servings of fruits/vegetables in my next two meals. I’ve allowed myself to eat bread, pancakes, and even cake (since I celebrated two birthdays last week), and these foods haven’t slowed me down. I have, however, discovered that I can no longer eat large quantities of sugar, as my body is no longer accustomed to it, so I can enjoy smaller servings to satisfy cravings and not be tempted to binge.
My ultimate goal with this strategy is to implement it long term. I suffered a little with depression this month and decided I needed to make a permanent change in my life and forget about rushing to lose weight before New Year’s. I realized restricting myself, recording everything I ate, and obsessing over my weight was not going to be sustainable for the rest of my life. I want to be healthy and fit, but I also really, really like pizza. (Pizza is actually one thing I can eat without getting sick, so… I have yet to allow myself to partake for fear of overeating. Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups fall into this category as well. I haven’t had a Reese’s since March 2018 because once I eat one, I can’t stop.) I think about the future often. I have this vision in my mind of what kind of wife/mother I want to be, so I have an ideal toward which to aim.
I’ve started walking more in addition to running and strength training. I want to have more energy and feel less anxious all the time. Sleep is one factor I haven’t been able to control as easily, since I live in a house full of people who always want to watch something or talk before bed even when they have to get up early for school/work the next day. Starting in January, I am going to crack down on my sleep schedule, because I still have two months of holiday shenanigans to endure.
I didn’t read any books this month, but I’ve started both Spinning Silver by Naomi Novik and Master of Sorrows by Justin Call. Maybe I’ll be able to finish one or both before the end of the year.
The weather has cooled very quickly. We have snow and frost on the windows. Remember when I was extremely hot and miserable in the summer (less than two months ago)? I’m pretty stoked that I can wear sweaters and socks in the house without melting. 🙂
NaNoWriMo has officially begun! My goal is to complete Part 4 before Thanksgiving. I have eighteen chapters left, so that’s ~six chapters a week. Whew. No problem. 😛
Are you participating in NaNoWriMo? What are your November goals? Comment below!